Monday morning as I was getting ready for the day, God convicted my heart. He put his finger and my prayer life and said, "you're prayer life is weak and that is why you've been feeling defeated and overwhelmed lately." Ummm. Ow. It hurt to hear and yet I immediately knew it was the voice of God calling me to repent (change) without delay.
Jesus showed me that I have been slipping into a coma of activity and self-dependence. There really is no worse place for a follower of Jesus to be. Prayerlessness impedes followership.
So I made some prayer decisions as I showered:
- write out a prayer each morning--helps me focus and create a trail of grace
- renew daily prayer with the redhead--we worked out the logistics for this last night (yes, there are logistics to praying with others)
- erase TwitterBerry off my BlackBerry (why? because it was diverting my prayer impulse away from prayer and toward reading what others were saying--bad)
- ask for greater sensitivity to prayer impulses coming from the Spirit.
These are initial steps of repentance but I expect more to flow as Grace comes from these steps of obedience. Obedience-->grace-->impulse from the Spirit-->further obedience: this is the cycle of blessing for those who follow.
Let me encourage you today: be unafraid to face and respond to what God is calling out in your life. Avoidance leaves you empty-handed and wandering. Repentance leads to life. Solus Christus.
Here's my prayer from today:
As I'm home with my bride tonight, allow me to show her my love in a way that feeds her soul. Protect me from letting my love for her become greater than my love for You.
Fill me with faith, hope and love. I am a Christian. These are my lifeblood; my primary qualities to be exposed and released. In Jesus name, amen.